this charming bard called me that. it has a ring to it, don't you think?
I thought I'd go. I feel like I've done nothing but get high since I got out of hellburbia. plus it feels selfish to have as many abilities as I have and not use them to help.
It does! Also, a bard? They're from medieval times.
I don't think you're selfish, Ava. Hellburbia was a lot so you had to handle the fallout in whatever way you could. But if going on the trip helps you, I'm not going to discourage it.
I will be safe. I'll just cuddle with my cat. Which, I forgot to tell you about.
James asked Emmanuel to give me my cat from home and Ava...it was one of the loveliest things that anyone has ever done for me.
Between you, me and James, I think my cat will be incredibly safe. Her name is Bast, after the Egyptian Goddess. You'll have to meet her when you get back.
Speaking of James, I have something to tell you about us. I haven't been able to tell anyone as I've kept it to myself.
Peter was my boyfriend in Hellburbia. The spell or whatever made us feel like we loved each other. So after the spell broke, the feelings were confusing. We decided to take some time apart because of that. We've always been a FWB type of thing, but I do still care about him.
James and I decided a few months ago that we'd have a semi-open relationship. We could sleep with other people, but ultimately, we'd be together, you know?
Last month, James told me that he loves me. Started feeling that way before Christmas and I told him that I had deep feelings too, but I haven't said that word to him yet.
Ava, no one has ever loved me before. Even now, I still can't believe it.
NO ONE? seriously? literally every guy you meet should fall in love with you! except tech. that'd be weird.
anyway, that's amazing, bee!!! I'm so happy for you! and james of course, he's a good guy. does the semi-open thing mean you rekindle things with peter?
not to take away from your celebration, but I guess I have love news too?? but I can tell you once I'm back from the trip!
It hasn't been that easy for me, Ava. Love was never an option.
And yeah, James is pretty great. So is Peter, but he and I will need to talk about where we stand. I know I want both of them in my life because of what they mean to me.
You can tell me about your love news when you've returned from your trip. I'm certain it will be worth the wait.
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I thought I'd go. I feel like I've done nothing but get high since I got out of hellburbia. plus it feels selfish to have as many abilities as I have and not use them to help.
if you're not going, stay safe while I'm gone.
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I don't think you're selfish, Ava. Hellburbia was a lot so you had to handle the fallout in whatever way you could. But if going on the trip helps you, I'm not going to discourage it.
I will be safe. I'll just cuddle with my cat. Which, I forgot to tell you about.
James asked Emmanuel to give me my cat from home and Ava...it was one of the loveliest things that anyone has ever done for me.
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that was so sweet of james, though will your cat be safe here?? I'll guard it with my life! well, once I'm back from the trip.
what its name?
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Between you, me and James, I think my cat will be incredibly safe. Her name is Bast, after the Egyptian Goddess. You'll have to meet her when you get back.
Speaking of James, I have something to tell you about us. I haven't been able to tell anyone as I've kept it to myself.
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love the name. does she like cuddles?
hmm, is he your boyfriend now??? wait, what about peter? wasn't he your boyfriend in hellburbia?!?!
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Peter was my boyfriend in Hellburbia. The spell or whatever made us feel like we loved each other. So after the spell broke, the feelings were confusing. We decided to take some time apart because of that. We've always been a FWB type of thing, but I do still care about him.
James and I decided a few months ago that we'd have a semi-open relationship. We could sleep with other people, but ultimately, we'd be together, you know?
Last month, James told me that he loves me. Started feeling that way before Christmas and I told him that I had deep feelings too, but I haven't said that word to him yet.
Ava, no one has ever loved me before. Even now, I still can't believe it.
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anyway, that's amazing, bee!!! I'm so happy for you! and james of course, he's a good guy. does the semi-open thing mean you rekindle things with peter?
not to take away from your celebration, but I guess I have love news too?? but I can tell you once I'm back from the trip!
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And yeah, James is pretty great. So is Peter, but he and I will need to talk about where we stand. I know I want both of them in my life because of what they mean to me.
You can tell me about your love news when you've returned from your trip. I'm certain it will be worth the wait.
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I hope peter's cool with you and james.
hopefully nothing goes wrong until then and my love news doesn't end up being bad news lol
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Peter is aware that I've been with other people, but he doesn't know about the whole love thing. I need to figure out how to tell him.
You'll be fine. You're a badass.
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maybe you should tell him after sex so he's in a good mood to receive the news???
I just pretend to be you, then being a badass comes easily.
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And we only started having sex again earlier this month after keeping our distance. I need to be careful.
Thanks for thinking I'm a badass, Ava.